Marriage

I've always thought about this. For as long as I could remember I would tell my mom I did not want to get married or have any kids. I knew that made her sad, but I always thought it was not for me. I did enjoy the idea of the actual day of getting married. Wearing the beautiful dress walking to the man I fell in love with down the isle. Before, I would just not want to get married and just continue dating or just stay single for life. But a friend of mine asked me "why do you date even if you don't want to get married?" I always thought you can date and be happy without a title and thats probably true because I am sure there are people in the world who do that. I don't know why I was so against getting married. I suppose it's just I'm scared, I have not been in a relationship long enough to prove that my significant other and I are going to be committed to spend the rest of our life together. Not saying we're going to cheat on one another it just was not proven to me. If I were to be married, I want to be completely sure, I am IN love as well as he is too and we are both in it for the long run. As of now, I feel more willing to get married but still not saying I will, just willing. I guess, I just need time to think about it whenever I do get to that point. I am just confused.

I thought of this because I realized I am finally not a teen anymore. And everyone around me is of that age where we are old enough to get potentially get engaged. I know there is no age limit on engagement it is just more probable at this age. It is crazy to think that you see your friends that have been in relationships for a long time and they get married. Instead of celebrating anniversaries you celebrate the wedding day.

Maybe, I'll be married one day and have my fairy tale engagement and wedding day. Who knows?