I can't sleep

I pray every night and tonight I prayed and I cried. It really takes a lot for me to cry. But these past couple days, I've been crying like I have not cried in years. It was a lot. I am not really religiously inclined, but I do have my beliefs. I have a past blog and it was called "To Know. To Love. To Serve" and that was when I was following my faith. I was religious at one point in my life and I still am in some aspects. But right now, I am growing up and trusting whatever God has in store for me. It was only until a couple nights ago when i finally realized why i don't go to church anymore. It's because I felt like I couldn't grow as a person. My attachment only made me feel like I was still in highschool. My days before would consist of church for most of my week and I couldn't let that go. Not saying it was a bad thing because it isn't. Being there, I learned a lot. But I feel like I have to go and learn on my own now. And not being held by my youth ministers hand anymore for guidance. I know she and God will always be there for me in my time of need. Just right now, I need to be on my own and hopefully I will be back on my faith again.

I will always still pray and rust in our God, Because I will always remember that God won't ever put us in any situation we cannot handle and to always Let go and let God