Stoge

I've heard it all before. I know it's bad. I want to quit, but I lack the will power. How sad is that? It makes people look older, bad skin, terrible lungs and a lot of other reasons. You know, I was able to like NOT have one. I was able to say no to urges. I was able to not walk across the bridge to 7/11 and not buy a pack. I suppose it was just before when everything started going down hill when I found out about my mothers condition. It's kind of contradictory when one of the effects does cause cancer. Sad right? I just had the urges to keep buying and buying one after another. I guess after that, I was so used to having one in my mouth it became like a norm. It went from maybe 2 packs a month to 4 or 5 a month. Especially when I would just sit down and just drink coffee or on breaks during school hours. And it honestly does not help when a majority of your classmates smoke as well and having the scent run through your nose. When i was at state, I would just have one right before every class and on breaks and I would probably smoke maybe 2 or 3 at most. it's really surprising that my family has not smelt it on me even when I would enter class and just reak of it. All my friend would just point it out but I didn't care what anyone thought. I was not going to stop for anyone. I'm not going to say I am going to quit completely but I will try to cut back.